Archive | June, 2010

So Long Farewell…

24 Jun

On Saturday, my husband left for Turkey.  He will be there for about 7 weeks, or so, visiting family and friends.  Originally, I was going to be with him this summer.  But, by a twist of fate, we got the opportunity to move back to South Carolina…and decided to jump!  With an impending move and job change, we {ok mostly I} decided that I needed to stay home and organize, pack, and try to keep my sanity.  This all happened in a short amount of time, but I thought I was prepared to tell him goodbye and hold down the fort for myself.  I thought I would relish in watching my girl movies, girl TV shows, and crafting {while also packing!}.  I thought I could appreciate the time to myself, to prepare for another life change.  I thought since 3 of the first 4 months of our relationship were spent with an ocean between us, this would be a piece of cake.

I thought wrong.

This sucks.  No matter how mentally prepared and ready I thought I was, I wasn’t.  This experience has already taught me so much.  About myself, about my husband, and about our relationship.  And its only been 4 days…

But during these 4 days, he was traveling, which meant limited communication and questions about when the next communication would be.  It meant having faith that planes would fly, trains and buses would travel, and he would arrive and depart safely from every destination….without any actual verification.  This required me to calm down my overactive imagination, say some prayers, practice some yoga and have faith.  And this was hard.  But it was also extremely eye opening.

It has made me so much more aware of the string of emotions that the spouses and families of our militaries.  It has given me so much more appreciation, respect, and empathy for them and the sacrifices they make.

So with 6 weeks left, I have made a list of things I want to accomplish for myself {and ultimately my marriage} while I am alone.  Since making a huge decision, and packing up my life to move to Syracuse and get married, I have not had any lengthy alone time.

And I think continuing that train of thought will have to wait for tomorrow’s post…as this one is QUITE long already.

So stay tuned for my plans for introspection…

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